Because I Could Not Stop for Death

Apparently, there are people out there who wonder what I do with all of my time. Hmmm ... nine kids, husband, house and yard, major disease. What to do? What to do?

Believe it or not, my "regular" life has not disappeared due to my illness. In fact, I am reeling from a devastating kid-related disappointment today. There are times when I think that it's downright unfair to have to deal with life's ordinary aggravations AND fight a major battle with cancer. But then again -- isn't that exactly what a cancer patient wants? To live a "normal" life, complete with disappointments and stopped-up toilets and financial conundrums?

Anyway, back to the original point: Even though all's quiet on the health front right now, my life has been extremely busy. My mother-in-law and I have been making Easter baskets, I'm now binding my latest quilt project (the butterfly quilt), and the kids are on spring break this week, so we are cleaning up and working in the yard and house, and we are going to go through their rooms to deep clean and switch their summer and winter clothing later this week. On top of this, I am making all of the arrangements for me to be gone for two days for the hospital consultation: lists of medications, copies of insurance cards, rides for working teens, emergency backup arrangements for everyone, "easy" food choices for Grandma, etc.

Even when I was bedridden for nearly five months last year, I manned Leming Central from my hospital bed in the family room. I coordinated schedules, helped with homework, filled out paperwork, paid bills on my laptop, and just generally managed the household from my sick bed.

Life does not stop, and lately it hasn't even slowed down. But I'm still here, and I want to be in the game instead of on the bench watching it played without me.