20 More Days ...
... and so far, so good.
I'm like the man who jumped off of a 40-story building, and as he fell past each story he shouted, "All right so far!"
Ordinary life races on, even in the face of all of the horrible possibilities. School starts in another week, so we spent the morning deep-cleaning. We washed walls and windows, sorted through papers and toys, and just basically cleaned the house from top to bottom. It's a double whammy for me right now, because I always get an overwhelming urge to clean, sort, and organize just before school starts AND just before I have surgery (since I will be down for a while and not able to do it).
Tonight Grandma Linda kept the kids while Don and I visited friends for a picnic. We had a nice, relaxing evening.
My pain wasn't too bad today, but it was very intense on the way home. It's crazy the way that the pain sets in every evening at about the same time and then rages all night, only to subside the next morning.
I was thinking about the pool tonight and missing it so badly. Those carefree evenings seem so far away from me now! You know that feeling you get when your vacation is over and it's Monday morning and you find yourself back at your desk, almost like you never left? Well, I have a feeling that summer vacation is over for me now -- and it seems very much like a lovely dream that was never really "real" at all.
I know it's time to get back to work now, time to swing back into fighting mode and prepare myself for this upcoming surgery and the renewed battle against this cancer.
Still, I find myself back in my chair, longing for one more wave of summer to wash over me and engulf me in its peaceful oblivion. I just want to slip into the pool for one more carefree, pain-free, uncrippled swim.
One more that lasts forever ...
:-) Sharon
I'm like the man who jumped off of a 40-story building, and as he fell past each story he shouted, "All right so far!"
Ordinary life races on, even in the face of all of the horrible possibilities. School starts in another week, so we spent the morning deep-cleaning. We washed walls and windows, sorted through papers and toys, and just basically cleaned the house from top to bottom. It's a double whammy for me right now, because I always get an overwhelming urge to clean, sort, and organize just before school starts AND just before I have surgery (since I will be down for a while and not able to do it).
Tonight Grandma Linda kept the kids while Don and I visited friends for a picnic. We had a nice, relaxing evening.
My pain wasn't too bad today, but it was very intense on the way home. It's crazy the way that the pain sets in every evening at about the same time and then rages all night, only to subside the next morning.
I was thinking about the pool tonight and missing it so badly. Those carefree evenings seem so far away from me now! You know that feeling you get when your vacation is over and it's Monday morning and you find yourself back at your desk, almost like you never left? Well, I have a feeling that summer vacation is over for me now -- and it seems very much like a lovely dream that was never really "real" at all.
I know it's time to get back to work now, time to swing back into fighting mode and prepare myself for this upcoming surgery and the renewed battle against this cancer.
Still, I find myself back in my chair, longing for one more wave of summer to wash over me and engulf me in its peaceful oblivion. I just want to slip into the pool for one more carefree, pain-free, uncrippled swim.
One more that lasts forever ...
:-) Sharon
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Thinking and praying for you!
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