It Finally Happened ...
The moment that had tormented me in recent dreams.
Don and I were about half-way to the airport to pick up our son when I realized that my head felt unusually cool ...
I raised my hand to my head to adjust my head cover ... and it wasn't there.
In my hasty, hectic departure, I completely forgot to apply my head covering. No one here noticed because they are accustomed to seeing my head in all of its grotesque glory.
So what now? I could not go into the airport like that! We were too far from home to come back for it. After a moment or two of full-blown panic, I remembered that there was a dollar store near us. I called ahead and asked them to bring a bandana or scarf or hat of some kind to the register for Don to purchase. He went into the store and $2.19 later he emerged with a 2-pack of blue bandanas. We continued our trip to the airport ...
I've decided that this is utterly ridiculous. While I am not prepared to go around with my head exposed to the world, here it is for your viewing pleasure:
(Don't say you haven't been warned ...)
So, there you have it. It's ugly. It's scary. It's downright disgusting. But guess what?
I'm alive! And fighting hard to stay that way ...
:-) Sharon
P.S. -- Can you see the tumor above my eyebrow? It's the same one that I mentioned several months that I can feel in my eye socket. It's growing, so it will need to be addressed in the near future.
posted by Sharon | 11:21 PM
22 Comments:
No one here will judge your looks, because you've always got a bright beautiful smile on that encompasses our entire attention :) It's impossible to focus on anything else.
We love you Sharon!
Nope..still don't care how you look! A big step for you though so know I'm sending you lots of love and HUGS!!!
You are beautiful no matter what. My mom broke out in rash all over her head from her wig. She is allergic to nylon! Comfort is paramount!
Lots of love,
Jeana
Don't let the things people say get you down. I read the comments people have made about Josiah. What is the accent thing??Accent??I have a 18 year old boy who has been on his own since he was 16 because of his poor choices.I love my son but I do not agree with all he does.Thank God Josiah has his talent to lean on-you are both very poetic.I was so glad to have found your site on my birthday.Keep up the positive attitude!
That wasn't nearly as bad as you led us to expect!!
However, I can understand it being uncomfortable for you. :hug: I pray for you every night.
i love you more each day - you remind me of my mom. thanks for showing us your head in its full glory! it's not scary; it helps us understand what you go through so that maybe, in a way, you can feel less alone because we are trying to feel your pain and struggles. hope that made sense. (??)
You honestly look beautiful because of the love shining in your eyes.
[[[hugs]]]
Oh Sharon, i wish i could give you a big hug! Do your tumors hurt? I hope they're nothing more than a nuisance. :/
ok, the truth? the look of the tumors is arresting at first. then after a moment...ppppfffttttt! nuthin.
your bravery on the other hand? now THAT leaves a lasting impression.
you're in my thoughts every day,
lorraine
Mrs.Leming,
need not care what people think.
you have a beutiful family that still loves you, with or without hair. You are still the loving mother that your children grew up with and the loving wife that your husband married.
You still love beutiful to me, beauty is how you act not how you look.
Much love
Sarah
Sharon
Your strength is amazing - I would never have it in me. Your will to live has and will continue to help you - keep fighten girl.
I for one see you as a beautiful gift here to inspire us all to LIVE
Love
Jodi
Sharon;
your beauty shines inside and out,
cancer or no cancer, you are still a great person and you will always be loved. to have the courage to show us at your best and at your worst is so admirable in someone. you are such an inspiration and a true role model! im praying for a long, healthy life for you!
love;
Ashley
You still look beautiful! When my aunt had brain cancer, she wore a wig. Some thing a jeana's mom - broke out in rashes and decided to toss it. Good for you Sharon!
Best Wishes!
- Jasmin
No, sorry.. but i don't worry about how you look! You still are A GREAT WOMEN!! And i look more your smile than your head...! And you still have beautiful eyes!! I am happy because your big step! WE LOVE YOU SHARON! Stay STRONG!!
Okay, you showed them. I am so sorry with all that you are going through. Same question as someone else---are they painful or more a cosmetic thing? I am thinking of you. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through with everything. You are such a fighter. Keep going.
I'm glad that you showed us. It is now acknowledged and, while bad...(I'm not trying to belittle it)....it was actually not as bad as I had imagined. I just feel for you.
You keep being the beautiful soul that you are. That is the thing that matters most. Change the head covers to match and coordinate with your outfits. You know, and we do too, that you are a beautiful person. I appreciate you so much for your honesty. I guess I can't really complain much about my pudgy tummy for swimsuit season...(I think that I am still carrying that last litter of kittens in my lower abs) Thanks for again putting into perspective.
Love you and your honesty.
Sharla
P.S. - I am hoping that you are still feeling as wonderful as you were in your previous blog (crossing fingers and quietly muttering...please say 'yes', please say 'yes')
Sharon,
You continue to show the world that beauty comes from a heart filled with love from the inside out, and as far as those tumors, no big deal to me darlin'!
Fight the good fight and keep smilin' 'cause you are gorgeous in all the ways that really matter!!
Tumors or no tumors...you are a beauty. Cancer can't take that away.
Hello Sharon
I just hope you're feeling better and better and that the discomfort from the tumors is more on the aesthetic side. Giving you props for just taking that big step you've been dreading. All my prayers are with you
Thank you for being brave enough to show us your tumors. I looked at them, but really it was your face that my eyes kept going back to. Your personality just shines through.
Hope you had a great time at Hugfest!
rosebud
God bless you.
I do love you,whatever.
Honestly, I was caught offguard and was not ready for an unexpected view, but realized the pain your going through and admired your strength.You are such an amazing human being! Remain strong!
Honestly, I was caught offguard and was not ready for an unexpected view, but realized the pain your going through and admired your coutshr snf strength. You are such an amazing human being! Remain strong!
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