Happy 50th Birthday, Don!

The love of my life is 50 years old today. We celebrated here at home with homemade pizzas and chocolate cake. I am so thankful that he and met nearly 18 years ago. He is my best friend, and there is no way I could have made it through the past 8 years without him.

As for me, I am just trying to hang on for my appointment in Nashville on Wednesday. The pain is reasonably controlled for right now, but it does get out from under me sometimes and it's very hard to get it relieved again. My legs are very, very weak. They feel "fuzzy" all of the time, like they are asleep, but so far I am still able to stand and transfer.

If I think about it too much, I am very frightened about the whole situation. I wonder what tomorrow's CT scans will show, what Dr. Cheng will say on Wednesday, what the fallout will be from this latest setback, and what price will have to be paid to regain some normalcy.

We will know the answer to these questions shortly. In the meantime, I try to enjoy the life that I have so stubbornly fought to retain. Birthdays. Housewarmings. Appointments. One season of my life continues to roll into the next, one blessed day at a time.

Happy birthday, Sweetheart!