Time Marches On
After a miserable night of pain and fear and agony on New Year's Eve (as you witnessed in my last post), I called an ambulance first thing in the morning on New Year's Day and went to the hospital for some intervention. They gave me a shot to get it under control and then prescribed me some pain medication to (hopefully) keep it from getting so severe again. You know how I feel about pain medicine -- I don't even like to take a Tylenol; but I am taking this stuff faithfully because I cannot bear to hurt like that again.
I finally have an appointment scheduled with Dr. Cheng, the neurosurgeon at Vanderbilt who did my spinal reconstruction surgery in August 2007. It is on Wednesday, January 21st, and even then it is a "work-in" appointment (read: long day). That's okay, because I am desperate to hear that he can help me again. The leg weakness is bad enough, but the pain is just unbearable.
Of course, this officially means that we will not be going to California this month for a Yondelis treatment or to try the SUCCEED trial. I guess I will just take the chemo break while we weigh our options in Nashville. I will still have CT scans some time this week or next week to see whether I have maintained stability on the Yondelis. The SUCCEED trial will be out because it has to be started within a strict window of time following other treatment, but I could go back on the Yondelis as long as it is still working for me.
In other news, another young Leming has flown from the nest. Autumn moved into her own place this weekend, a cute little efficiency apartment about 10 minutes from here. We wanted her to stay home until she finishes two years of culinary school, but she was determined to try her wings. I've been very emotional about it, but I am trying to be supportive of her.
It just hurts so much when they leave home. Do they have to grow up so fast? Time passed in a fog of days and weeks and years, and now I find myself wondering where it all went. And I find myself wanting more of it, more days and weeks and years, more moments and seconds and memories.
More precious time. Please, Lord, let it be ...
:-) Sharon
I finally have an appointment scheduled with Dr. Cheng, the neurosurgeon at Vanderbilt who did my spinal reconstruction surgery in August 2007. It is on Wednesday, January 21st, and even then it is a "work-in" appointment (read: long day). That's okay, because I am desperate to hear that he can help me again. The leg weakness is bad enough, but the pain is just unbearable.
Of course, this officially means that we will not be going to California this month for a Yondelis treatment or to try the SUCCEED trial. I guess I will just take the chemo break while we weigh our options in Nashville. I will still have CT scans some time this week or next week to see whether I have maintained stability on the Yondelis. The SUCCEED trial will be out because it has to be started within a strict window of time following other treatment, but I could go back on the Yondelis as long as it is still working for me.
In other news, another young Leming has flown from the nest. Autumn moved into her own place this weekend, a cute little efficiency apartment about 10 minutes from here. We wanted her to stay home until she finishes two years of culinary school, but she was determined to try her wings. I've been very emotional about it, but I am trying to be supportive of her.
It just hurts so much when they leave home. Do they have to grow up so fast? Time passed in a fog of days and weeks and years, and now I find myself wondering where it all went. And I find myself wanting more of it, more days and weeks and years, more moments and seconds and memories.
More precious time. Please, Lord, let it be ...
:-) Sharon
posted by Sharon | 10:57 PM
9 Comments:
Don't hesitate. Yondelis will work for you....Try to continue the treatment as soon as possible.
Regards from Spain.
Time. Its all that is important when we near (or believe we are nearing) an end. I wish I could give you all the time you wanted.
I hope that the CT scan shows continued improvement!
Be positive, you can do this, sharon!
Be glad you have ambitious children. It is a blessing.
k
Aww, they do grow up way too fast! So sorry for your pain...inside and out. My thoughts and prayers are with you always!
Rhonda(inWi.)
You are such a wonderful mother and person!
Hold on to your faith and vision, even if it's subconscious for awhile.
I still have my one and only baby at home, but I know the day will come when he'll be off into the world...I see him finding himself, testing his wings even at his young age of 12. All we can do is love and let go...and it's so hard to do, isn't it?
Many prayers and good wishes are sent your way from N. Florida...take care of you...
Please please let us know how you are doing. Ever are you in my thoughts and prayers.
Sharon,
I'm so happy you made it into the New Year! May this one bring to you a MIRACLE that your suffering and pain be eased!!! I'll keep praying.
Much love,
Theresa
today is the 17 jan. Looking forward to your next blog, Sharon, love me
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